Brian's Mess And Random Thoughts

What up peoples ?!?!?!?! It has been awhile since I have talked to you and updated you with what has been going on in my life. There is a lot to unpack and I am going to try to be as clear as I can. Some of you wont understand were I am coming from and I am okay with that.  THE BACKGROUND OF MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY So I want to give some background on how my spiritual journey. Since I was a baby I went to church every Sunday . As a teenager I went to youth group and I would put on a mask that I was saved .  At a christian summer camp I thought I heard god call me to be a youth pastor/head pastor. After that experience at that christian summer camp , I started to drink and use drugs  At age 20 , June 9, 2009, I decided to get sober and get my life back on the right path. October of 2009 I decided to answer a alter call and give my life to christ. The next year I went bible school for a year , though I made some great friendships , I highly regret going to bible college becaus...

So I thought it would be a grand idea to share my vision for this blog for 2020 and my goals for 2020. So let's start with my goals for 2020. MY GOALS FOR 2020 So I no longer do new year resolutions because to me they are fake goals with no real intention to start.   What I have been doing the last 2 years is setting up goals that are attainable and realistic goals I am 100% on board with. So here are my top three goals :    1, Take better care of my mental health  From 2018  to 2019 , my mental health has not been the greatest and I have not really put any effort towards to taking better care of my mental health . My mental health has affected my belief in God and my belief  that people close to me care about me, excluding my wife , some family members , an some friends, thank you to the real ones who have stood by me. I am at point were I barely trust any christian leadership because I have let them have too muc...

What's going on Fam ?!? HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This week's song is a cover by one of my favorite Youtubers , Teddy Swims . I found Teddy Swims on Youtube randomly last month and boy!!,  this dude can sing!! I really hope someday I can see Teddy Swims live. Here is Teddy Swims with his cover of Shania Twain's " You're Still The One"